Friday, November 27, 2009

.:The signs of Life:.

While walking up a steep mountain, she realized, that life is but a struggle. The amount of energy and work you put in just to reach the top shows many important traits in a person: perseverance, determination, hard work, courage and strength. The main aim: To reach the top, To be able to see what has yet to be seen, and To be able to hold victory in our hands. That's my goal, that's our goal~

But during that struggle, one fails to realize the outcome, the resulting effect, the after story; Going up that mountain will bring you happiness that was never there at the bottom. Going up the mountain will show you a beautiful ever after story, that'd you'd want to see and cherish for the rest of your life.

When you reach the top, thats when the eager feeling in you starts taking over. You look to the right, and also to the left, hoping to see that "Big" gift, the gift you struggled for. Yes, most of the time, you'll be delighted, but sometimes, it may just seem like there is nothing. Nothing to be looked at, nothing to be remembered, just another ordinary scenery. You might even think, the struggle wasn't even worth it.

In life we may not always get what we want,
We may not always get what we need,
But we get what we deserve,
Cause God, in some way or another,
Gives us only the best~

.:By J:.

But sometimes, when you feel like you've not got what u deserve, or what you actually want, it may seem like the end of the world. You might want to give up. The worry of not being to achieve kills you, breaking down every little self-esteem embedded in you. You might feel like packing your bags and leaving, or even just trying another route/road not taken in life. Sorrow fills the air, something you'd wish never happened. But we fail to realise, what we have today, and what we experience today, regardless of how fruitful it is, it may contribute in some way or another in the future~

Life is only travelled once,
Todays moment becomes tomorrows memory,
Enjoy every moment, whether good or bad,
Cause the gift of life is "Life" itself~

.:By D:.

No man can live in a lonely island. No man can survive on his own. This is when relations come in handy. Whether he's your friend, you family, your lover, a third party, or a total stranger, all human beings link in some way or another. In life, you come across many different beings, some being over the top, some bearly realise their ability. Some fly high in the sky, whereas some choose to take a stroll down the park. Some prefer black, some just love the pure white. Regardless of what people choose or how they are, they're people, and someday in our lives we will have to associate ourselves with them. Some relations make you glad, some make you cry. Either way, their relations, some what related to you, whether you like it or not.

Never cry for any relation in life,
Cause the person you cry for,
Does not deserve your tears,
And the one who deserves,
Never makes you cry~

.:By D:.


100 words does not give pain,
But a true friend's silence,
Makes more tears in heart.

.:By J:.

So whats the verdict?

When you truly care for someone,
You dont look for faults;
You dont look for mistakes;
Instead you fight the mistakes,
You accept the faults,
And you overlook the excuses.
Thats Life!

.:By D:.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

.:~The irony of Life~:.

A gloomy day, marks an end of a rather eventful and challenging season. Its time to clear things out, to make things in order, to prepare for another new season, hopefully, its a brighter and more cheerful day.

People say a thousand things, sometimes language is a barrier, sometimes its the expression when things are said that we never seem to understand, sometimes, its just the way we comprehend things, always only sticking to our believes and never opening up. This difference is what brings to the other elements of life, happiness, friendship, love, conflict, heart ship, hatred, and so on. God is great! He created us to have an opinion, to have likes and dislikes, to like and hate, and finally, the rest just falls in place. We say we like, and the other may say otherwise, and at the end, a conflict arises. Ironic huh?

Many of us are victims of situations. We never mean anything, but its taken the other way. Its like being accused for a crime that you never commited. This brought me to the thought: Have you ever imagined how many innocent people are actually paying the price to a crime they never commited? They got "trapped" between the walls of laws and justice, but nothing was on their side. Sad, but that's life. Nothing is fair, nothing is forever ours, Nothing is permanent.

As human beings, we're always played by situations and incidents. When we see something nice and inviting, we tend to forget ourselves, excitement takes over, and you bearly have control over anything. You'd just surrender to the moment, and wish it wont end. But then again, nothing lasts for eternity~ Then when the dark clouds dominate the sky, we realise, that the end is here. We run for our lives, we chase after the light, hoping to just blend in with it and never to see darkness again. But eventually, we loose, and we've to prepare to face the worst. Some cry, some whine, some throw tantrums, some just stay silent. That's when we say grace, we hope that someone or something will come and take us away from this dreadful experience. That's when we realise, that life is never the expected. Its the unexpected that makes life what it truly is.

Many things are unexpected. Many things are worth a thousand explanations, but sadly no one is here to listen. Everyone is just so busy with their part of life, that there is no one willing enough to hear your cries and whines. Thats life. You can never entirely blame them for not taking any form of care towards you, cause regardless of how much u do for the world today, no one will appreciate it, you're only approached when needed, then left alone when you're not.
But we must always take a moment to think, and show minimum appreciation as possible, to those who actually care, those who actually help us and guide us, cause these people, whether good or bad, whether rich or poor, they are your well-wishers. They may not be with you always, they may not even talk to you daily, you may not even see them, but they're there, hoping and wishing for your success. Those are simple human beings too, and all they wish for is a simple smile on your face. I know a few people who are like that, they make life blissful.
Many things may have happened, Many incidents may have broken hearts, Many occurence may have brought bitterness, But someday, this will all be remembered in life, and then someday we will miss the sweetness. When that day comes, never hesitate to approach, cause you'll be surprised to see, what a great relationship you were about to loose......
“Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?”
“Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”
“Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.”

Friday, November 20, 2009

Spilling my guts~

So here i am, back to where i was before a two week exam that basically brought my self-esteem down, and tortured me with no sleep! huhuhu...:( But now, its time to kick the books out of the window(i respect my books, and i wouldnt do that really) and its time to party. The only catch is that, my party starts in this room, its a huge room, with large, long desks. You come in, and all you'll see is glassware and scientific apparatus! Yes, its Lab 318! The place i spent most of my time this season(referring to this semester):P and now, i'm at the climax, the top of the roller coaster, hoping to finish this rather interesting and unique journey, called the "Final Year Project"!

Besides that, I have nothing much installed for this month. Its supposed to be our semester break, but since we're all "Final Year Students" and we have our so famous "Final Year Project", we're all stuck here in uni! I know, uni isn't a bad place afterall, especially when you're talking about freedom to wonder around penang, which i have yet to do although i've been here for more than 2 years :P But its never too late to start no? :P I'm hoping to have a project-filled as well as a fun-filled holiday, although my dooms day will come in 3-4 weeks time, yes its the results... haih. Its so ironic, how you can think of fun and happiness at one point, then totally get gloomy and worried the next! Ok, i have decided not to be too philosophical since many are so against it:P which i know is due to pure jealousy! muahahaha.. ok.. yea.. shoot me, i need a break!

So many people 'balik kampung' today! My kampung is coming to me:P hahaha.. that sounded weird, but my folks are coming today! woohoo! Its time for some loving and cheerful time, since i miss them lotz! i mean loadz! wait, which is more? lots or loadz?

So have a great week everyone!

Lots of Love,

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

.:The cries of a victim:.

As I sit here thinking about the events that have taken place in my life recently, I only seem to shed tears, It starts of so beautiful and exciting, and then it reaches a stage where I stand numb, wishing if I had another path, another route, the path not taken. Then I jump back to reality, realizing that even if there was a “road not taken”; I can never change what has already happened. Thunder storms, sadness and disappointments then surround the issue or event. Then I realize, and tell myself, that marks the end.

It is so ironic, when something nice and beautiful, something like a brightly lighted hall with coloured fluorescent lights, or maybe the morning shine, blazing through your room window, can just change, become dark and so uninviting in just a split second, or maybe in an hour, a day, or even a few years. It’s as if you’ve planned to spend the night out in the gardens, you put your tent on, prepare a wonderful picnic, watch the stars shine bright with the moon smiling at you; and then all of a sudden, a storm hits and destroys the situation, including the person’s happiness. Its sad, disappointing and very heart breaking, but thats life no? What is life without disappointments and failures, what is life without hardship and sadness?

In a period of 6 months or so, I have learnt so many things. It involves a wide range of attributes; but very challenging ones: trust, betrayals, heart-break, discrimination and insults.

Loneliness surrounds me nowadays. It’s a very gloomy and discomforting condition. Life alone is hard, especially when its new to you, and you’ve always been surrounded by loving and caring people who constantly provide attention and support to you. Its painful, when no one cares about your whereabouts, your upcoming agendas, your struggles, your pain, why, even little things matter; like if you’ve had your meal or if you’re healing from an intense condition. I learnt it the hard way, cold shoulders and staring eyes with no words, just stares, that make you think of a thousand and one reasons, but never get an exact answer. I learnt it the hard way, but I’m surviving. Surviving through this hard period, wishing for my silver lining to appear. Call me traditional, or even childish for the matter, but this is me, I expect nothing, not gifts, money or gold; I wish for a simple “Hi. How are you?”or just an “All the best”. I’ve learnt to ignore not being acknowledged, or even smiled at, but it hurts when all I seek for is closure.

Deep inside me, it kills to know what others have in mind. Cause I think all that has happened was a misunderstanding, or a misperception of situations and incidents. From the bottom of my heart, I never meant any harm. I never failed to pray for good, to pray for happiness of the people around me, to pray for their success. I shared everything, from the slightest understanding in a particular subject to the newest discovery on the internet. Everything I did open heartedly, but it stabs me hard to not know why I am no longer associated with.

But I know, this situation brings happiness to the other end, and I am aware, a lost place will never return, and yes, I will never stop crying, but someday we’ll learn a great lesson from this, and maybe then, I wont be a victim of situation and be accused for it again~