Sunday, March 08, 2009

Eyes wide open~

"There is this huge load in me, a load i wish to share with so many,yet i feel none is capable of understanding it,cause no one is there to hold my back..."

What can you gain from that?
1)There is a huge sadness in this person, heart felt sorrow and pain, that seems large compared to the spatial extent of his/her heart.
2)There is this wish in her, to show and tell the people around his/her what he/she is facing deep in his/her, but he/she's skeptical,thinking twice, probably cause he/she can't trust anyone.

3)Understanding. He/She uses this word to express the root of the problem. He/She questions the commitment people have over his/her life, the commitment and trust people have on every relationship related to his/her.

4)Finally, he/she concludes that there isn't one genuine being that is available, not even one to fight for her or to check if he/she is ok. This is when you deeply realise, who stands closest to you and who doesn't.

One wise man once told me, no one is a permanent friend, neither is a person a permanent enemy. Question: Then what is everyone around us? Temporary assets that claim to be valuable only for a certain duration of time. Sad, painful but true! Truth always hurts!

You know, life can be so unfair at times. We follow the laws: from the law of gravity to the law of attraction, from public laws to the laws of religion... everything is followed, but yet, you get caught for an act, that ur entirely not responsible for. How so? Another question with infinite answers!

Generally, there is this law, the Law of Nature, Nature in this context absolutely referring to the law "we" humans prefer following, the law that relies entirely on the words we blurt out! Sad? No! Hurting? No! Just entirely "unique".

This law apparently kills every bit of trust, every bit of belief we build towards someone or something. This is sad! Why? Cause, its most of the time something that doesn't have a strong basis to support! But yet it is followed, and this is the thing that puts us at this position, the position in which we gain no certainty about life. This has become our norm, our culture, our practice, but yet people fail to realise, these things just kill us bit by bit, day by day. But remember, its a norm! Its either you choose to follow it blindly which most of us do, or you go with the flow, make the best of every situation and decision, but consider every little popping idea that comes in ur mind and heart! I like no.2... :D

Its hard to be yourself these days, Every little detail creates doubt, every little step makes the world turn around, but the irony is that everyone else is asking u to change when they're simply trying so hard to be like you. Okay, this is brutal, but its something we all do, look at a common picture and trying drawing it out! Its like.. you see this latest designer dress being worn by your favourite celebrity, and the next thing ,whether u realise it or not, you're in a store searching for it.

The bottom line is, we follow people whom we think are sensible, someone we think is on the right track, but we must realise, instead of following them, we should improvise ourselves, make it as original as possible, because only then people will appreciate us as being entirely ourselves, instead of being associated with someone else.

We all act. Thats something we must accept. We are all actors and actresses in life, whether you realise it or not. For example, when you're out to meet someone, you put on ur best behaviour, and that is a simple example of a mask, that u wish to show the world, so that at the end of the day, the impression imposed on you is the best, giving no possible way to any negative comments. So, at the end of the day, we're all acting in a play called "life" and we all wish to have the "best role" award. So, note this: Improvise, make yourself as original as possible, cause then, you'd make a statement!

Lastly, Life is in your hands. Make the best of it, not for the world, but just for yourself, and those that play an important role in your life.


Monday, March 02, 2009

Reminiscence ~

Sitting in this lonely room, she reminiscent the last time she saw you, it wasnt face-to-face, but it was good enough! Little, sweet smiles; jokes and laughter, felt as if all emotions gushed out in a split second. She teared and said "I miss you so much baby." He spread his arms wide open, and all he asked her to do was "Fall into my arms my beautiful princess, dont move away!" Those were the days when falling in love seemed so beautiful, it involved tonnes of smiles and millions of tears, but yet it brought two hearts close together, two hearts that were dying to unite as one.

As time passed, as many sunsets occured, they only grew to realise that all they wanted most of life, was each other. Nothing more, not even money, car, house, or anyone else, and they wanted nothing less too. As time passed, problems step foot into the beautiful bond they had. Well, when this is said, most of us would wonder if its either one of them with the problem, but the truth is that, every little problem that came along their lives, was due to the people around them. No one had faith that it would work out, no one had hope...

Facing so many ups and downs they realised, it was time to consider beyong love itself. "I love you, dont ever doubt that, but there is more to love than just us, we can only move on and achieve our dreams of being one, if and only if we decide to make sacrifices and face all the criticism the world has for us.." Those words of his caught her attention, for once in her entire life she realised that love doesnt stand on its own. Love needs to be supported by reality, logic, norms, practices.....

They could only hold each other close, pat each others back, plant small kissess and bind tightly to one another.. cause at that point of time, it felt as if everything is starting to shatter.. every tear resembled a mile away from one another.. She wrapped her arms around his neck, grabbing on his jacket, her hands slipped every time she held that jacket tight, she never did once want to believe that it was a sign, a sign that probably all the bliss and love she had felt ever since they united are being shed bit by bit, day by day...

"So baby? Shall we take sometime to think it over? Lets consider every little bit of issue that is being presented to us.. lets see if this will work baby.. If it does we'll move on, but if it doesn't we will part as friends..." he said, he tried hiding his grief from her, he never did shed a tear (or she just didnt see it), but he pretended well.

As the tears rolled down her beautiful face, she looked at him, and whispered, " If this is what we need to face my baby, lets take a few days, a few days to decide the best decision towards our happiness, but until then, could we just please cherish every little bit thats left of our love? "

No one could say a word, cause thats how painful it is when u stand between 2 different worlds.. between love and logic...

I wish...

I wish you could see
just how much you mean to me
how your kisses make me feel
and how your love is so real
how your hugs make me melt
you bring out this feeling ive never felt
i get this tingle in my tummy
everytime i try to talk....i feel like a dummy
your eyes are so deep in blue
i get lost in them everytime i look at you
and your touch...dont get me started
when i tryed to flirt i feel Re-tarted
but please dont leave me
because i know you wont ever know or see
how much you made smile
and without you my heart i would put in deniale
becuase no-one else could ever make me feel
the way you could and i dont think i could deal
with all the pain of losing you
so stay with me my baby boo