Thursday, December 18, 2008


Lol. thanks to sharmila! i respond sharmila. i really do. ;) Hope ur doing good too:D.

ok..ok.. back to the survey~ I decided to have a 50-50 view, meaning to answer the question with both, a girl and a guys view.. not bias, just as honest and as fair as it could be. Well, its not that i have nothing to do, i just have so much stuff to do, that i need a break. So lets take a chill pill and enjoy the survey ok? ;)

1. Do you think you're hot?
NOT! but i have curves :P okay, thats just to make me feel better. sheesh!

2. Upload a favourite picture of yourself.
done that too many times...:)

3. Do you like the picture?
i love myself, so yea its not bad~:P

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
hmm... 2 days back~ :P yummy. Canadian Pizza~

5. What was the last song you listened to?
shawty get loose -lil mama and chris brown~

6. What are you doing right now besides this?
talking to friends, blogging, and facebooking~;)

7. What name do you prefer besides your name?
anything NICE... lol.. used to Sharu~

8. 5 people I tagged :
ezreena, nat, dharry, sanjay and kas? well aint sure if they'll do it:P

9. Who is number 1?
my pet sis whom i've not kept in touch with for so long! hope ur doing good girl~ great girl indeed!

10. Who is number 3 having relationship with?
Aint sure! Dharry i need updates! miss ya lotz girl~

11. Say something about number 5.
Out-going, cheerful! love her!

12. How about number 4?
Great guy, really hardworking! You go man!! :)

13. Who is number 2?
My great pal. she's the best girl friend ever! The future fashion designer! miss ya so much gurl!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

None of us Lets Go~

she couldn't let him go. She just couldn't. It was so difficult to leave him, because she knew how much he had helped her deal with life, she had only one person whom she shared everything with, and she knew, that if she were to let him go, it would be the greatest sacrifice ever. But she still wanted to leave, she wanted to tell him that either way, no matter how much we try, it isn't going to work out, as there were too many differences, too many objections, too many frustrating situations. But she couldnt, neither could he. He cried for days, all he asked for was a chance, a chance to be united, a chance to proof that things can work out and that everything will be fine. That was all he asked for, despite all the negative responses obtained.
So there they were, talking, thinking of how destiny had played with their lives, but out of the blues, one fine day, he came up to her and asked, if she was willing to just give him one more chance, one more chance of proving himself to her, to her family and all those who doubted what they had. He didn't ask for money, he never asked for attention, he asked for one chance, for him to show what he had deep inside, to show the love he had for her. She played it safe, knowing the circumstances she is in, she wanted his love, she wanted to love him, but she didnt want any strings attached, cause she feared if one day, destiny might separate them again.
Letters, emails, conversations, it all just went on and on. The one thing that was common, was the fact that he always had a feeling in him, a feeling he never liked and was scared about, and that was losing her. He'd always remind her, "Although i say i love u, i feel like i'm losing u". Those words made her silent, tears filled her eyes, and all she could say was i know u love me, and lets just give it time, God is on our side. That crushed him deep inside, she knew it but she had no way out. They contacted each other, and yes they grew closed to one another, but the fear haunts them both, the fear that they might not be one someday.
For the beautiful woman of my dreams:
Waiting for the morning to come to you, with baited breath to breathe your love, expectant of what the day will bring, I stand at your side my heart in hand. Beautiful my princess in and out, you lie in bed your body taught, your lips softly moaning a song of love, your eyelids batting in the breeze. You look at me, you smile and kiss, my waiting hand, towards your heart you pull.Intense embrace of love we share, a metaphor of life with you, my charming love my precious wife, I'm yours alone I'm yours to hold. A pleasure so sublime our love, a thing that can be shared with none, a force so strong it knows no bound, a bridge which spans all oceans thus. The will to fight together held, by everlasting love will be, our prize a life together spent, in harmony and loving toil.

Time will tell a thousand things,
but they hope that time will finally bring them to one,
the fact of being together with the blessings of their loved ones....

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

none of us lets go.... :'(

"i need some time and space. I dont think i am ready." Those were the words that came out of her mouth earlier today. Mixed feelings, so much memories and issues running in her head. She never knew it would just end in a wink of an eye. But it did, and she let it be, as he himself said it would hurt if it prolonged. So it was the end to a one year relationship, which coloured her life and transformed her into a fine woman. Now she sits alone, thinking about her state and condition,not knowing where to go, not knowing what to do, but tears just flow, and its been flowing without a stop for sometime.. even at this point, she isnt thinking about herself, but she's thinking about him, whether he'd be ok and he would move on.. whether he'd smile and enjoy life again after what she has done.. she stands like an evil shadow in front of him, evil enough to hurt him and crush him into pieces.

She wanted this so much, but she let it go, cause she doesnt want to hurt him anymore, she thought she could mend everything, but she ended up killing him, for what she felt inside her, she felt as if it wasn't genuine, and she didn't ever want to take him for a ride which has no promises. Everything moved too fast, she needed to stop, and think. So she did, she thought about everything, So she decided, that she would take a time out from everything, and that included leaving him.

So they talked, they cried, they begged, and finally it all ended. Now, she's here, sitting in front of the computer, waiting and hoping that he would be on, but he wasn't. She felt so much guilt, so much sadness, cause she hurt him so much, that she worries so much for him. She felt as if she lost half of her soul. She read his letters, emails, postcards all over again, and it struck her so bad, that he had spent so much on her, and she realised that all she did for him was hurt him... deep inside.. :'(

So, she decided to leave him a short note, despite promising him to not ever disturb him in any way, cause she couldnt help it, too worried about what he might do or decide.. so she did, send him a short note..

"i am guilty and i am so sorry for all the pain i am causing u right now. I hope you understand someday, that everything happens for a reason, and that i never meant to kill u like this. I know i;m not supposed to text you, but i just couldnt hold back. i know i did so much to u, but i need to know ur ok.. just that.."

Holding his letter and the gifts in her hands, she sat there, in her room, on the floor, leaning on the wall, waiting to get a short response from him...

"God bless you"