Sunday, December 16, 2007


The she stood by the window, thinking of the little happiness she's feeling deep inside her these past few days. She was happy, as she was loved. She felt how sweet and wonderful it was to fall in love. There she stood by the window, looking back at all her conversations with the man she loved. All he did was love her the way she was, and she would always go through over and over again the conversations they had together as it meant so much to her.

She: thanks for loving me this way...
He: ur special baby
She: u make me feel so happy
He: you make me feel special too for deserving ur love
She: my love is nothing compared to urs and thanks so much baby for loving me...
He: baby, ur love is everything to me
She: ur love is what is keeping me going
He: babes, I love you

And yes, they argued, on whose love is bigger. Their daily routine was as normal, but every 12 hours, they meet online, and chat for about 2-3 hours, telling each other how much love meant to them, planning a future together, and how much they can't live without each other. Wow, i know, sounds like a fairy tale or something!

As time passed, they realised, what love was about. Sounds so much like a fairy tale doesn't it, but the truth is that, they became one due to their differences. They were different in many ways, and many times, they got into arguments and misunderstandings, due to their differences. However, what this contributed to their relationship was stregth, as they grew much closer to one another. They always were aware of their differences. She is the eldest child in a middle class family which encourages children to love education, very religious and gives culture the most importance, has very good moral values and practices, very caring. He on the other hand is the youngest child of a well-to-be family, which also is religious, and promotes lots of loving deeds within the family, making them very loving people, always thinking of the well-being of all the people within the nucleus family as well as the people around them.

They grew much closer to each other, sharing each others future dreams to have a wonderful future, they spoke about their education, her dream of being a researcher and him being a successful engineer. They even talked about them being a couple, how they'd make their parents accept what they have between them. They even spoke about building a family together, and that kept them alive, to expect a wonderful life with each other. It was beautiful. They wrote each other little notes and that made them eagerly in love...

But what the guy didnt know is that, the gal never had any trust in him at the beginning. She never pictured herself in love, and she never expected herself to fall in deep. She said a few lies, and she thought it was normal. He did the same, he tested her as to how loyal she is. Finally, he did confess his mistakes and lies. But the gal didnt do that. She never thought things could work out, because she knew, her parents wouldnt approve of anything of that sort, as to her family, education is of great importance, and everything else comes in second. She played along, but what she failed to realise is that she loved him, she liked the way he treated her, the way he loved her, they way he understood her. She looked forward for every meeting, every online conversation, every little detail of the relationship. She was in love, she loved the feeling and she eventually opened herself up. She talked to him, told him everything abt herself, except for the little lies she said before, such as her name and other biodata details. She cried every night, thinking of how she could open up to him, but she couldnt, cause he kept saying how happy he was to see her online. She didnt want to hurt him, but she knew eventually she'll have to open up eventually.

She cries every night, worried that he might leave her for the lies she has said. She was bold, cause she knew,she can never keep the secrets any longer, as she feels like she's cheating him and that its against the trust they have in such a beautiful relationship. She finally told him, she confessed everything, telling him that she never meant to lie, but she never had faith in the relationship they had. But she confessed that now, she is madly in love with him, and that he is the key of her happiness. He stood there, speechless, with watery eyes, looking her directly in the eye.

He: How could you? How could u keep something like that away from me?
She: I'm so sorry baby. I never meant to keep it away from you. It was just that i
said that lie from the beginning,and i didnt know how to correct them, as i was
worried about losing you. But now i know, its important for me to tell you what
happened, so that i dont cheat you, or cheat this beautiful precious
relationship that we have between us.
He:So what do i do now? What should i do, you said u trust me, what happened to that?

All she did was she cried. She told him it was totally her fault and that she has no other way to help minimize the situation. She fell on his leg, asking for forgiveness, and all he did was walk away... and he's not come back ever since...

She is still waiting in anticipation, regresting every little mistake she made...

Trust! An important element in a relationship.

What is trust?
Trust is:

Letting others know your feelings, emotions and reactions, and having the confidence in them to respect you and to not take advantage of you.

Sharing your inner feelings and thoughts with others with the belief that they will not spread them indiscriminately.

Placing confidence in others so that they will be supportive and reinforcing of you, even if you let down your "strong'' mask and show your weaknesses.

Assuming that others will not intentionally hurt or abuse you if you should make an error or a mistake.

The inner sense of acceptance you have of others with whom you are able to share secrets, knowing they are safe.

The sense that things are fine; that nothing can disrupt the bond between you and the other.

The ability to let others into your life so that you and they can create a relationship built on an understanding of mutual respect, caring, and concern to assist one another in growing and maturing independently.

The glue or cement of relationships that allows you to need others to fulfill yourself.

Opening yourself up to let others in on your background, problems, concerns, and mistakes with the assurance that they will not ostracize you because of these things.

The act of placing yourself in the vulnerable position of relying on others to treat you in a fair, open, and honest way.

Why do people have trouble developing trust in others?

People have trouble developing trust if they have:

Experienced a great deal of emotional and/or physical abuse and/or neglect.

Been chronically put down for the way they feel or for what they believe.

Been emotionally hurt in the past and are not willing to risk getting hurt in the future.

Had problem relationships in the past where they were belittled, misunderstood, or ignored.

Experienced the loss of a loved one through death. They can get so caught up in unresolved grief that they are unable to open themselves up to others, fearing they will be left alone again due to death, or, abandonment.

Experienced a hostile or bitter divorce, separation, or end of a relationship. They may be unable to believe anyone who opens up to them in a new, committed relationship.

Been reared in or have lived in an environment emotionally and/or physically unpredictable and volatile.

Experienced a great deal of pain at the hands of another. Even if the other finally recognizes and accepts the responsibility to change such behavior, the person fears that if they let their guard down, the pain and hurt will begin again.

Low self-esteem and cannot believe that they are deserving of the attention, care, and concern of anyone. They have problems even trusting the positive, healthy, and reinforcing behavior of another who is sincere.

Experienced a great deal of non-provoked victimization in their lives. They are unwilling to trust people, situations, or institutions for fear of being victimized again.

What are some beliefs of people who have problems trusting?

I have been hurt too much in the past, and I refuse to be hurt again now or in the future!

People are out to get all they can from you, so avoid them to survive!

As soon as you let your guard down, you will be stepped on again!

No one is to be trusted!

You always get hurt by the ones you love!

I get no respect from anyone!

All men (or women) are dishonest and are never to be trusted!

Everyone is out to get me!

I am never successful in picking partners, so why try again!

As soon as you care and open up to someone, they will always leave you!

Marriage is the pits!

There is no such thing as a healthy relationship!

You can never let your guard down because all hell will break loose!

All reformations are short-lived!

If I give in and believe you have truly changed, relaxing my defenses, I am most certainly going to be hurt again once you backslide!

There is no such thing as change in behavior. It is only manipulation by others to get their way with you!

Everyone is out to get as much as they can out of you!

There is no such thing as a fair employer, generous company, or supportive work place!

It is better to live alone for the rest of my life than to risk being hurt as I was!

I will never let you know my true feelings again since, if I do open up, I'm afraid you will use them against me to hurt me!

What behavioral traits do people need in order to develop trust?

People need to develop the following behavior traits, attitudes, and beliefs in order to develop trust:

Hope in the goodness of mankind: Without such hope people can become emotionally stuck, reclusive, and isolated. Hope in goodness is a change based on the willingness to take a risk that all people are not evil, bad, or ill-willed.

Faith in the fairness of life: This faith in fairness is similar to the ``boomerang belief,'' that what you throw out to others will come back to you eventually in life. So if people are fair, honest, or nurturing they will eventually receive similar behavior aimed back at them. Having faith in fairness is an attitude that helps people be open to others and risk being vulnerable. They believe that the person who treats them negatively will eventually ``get it in the end!'' and be punished in someway later in this life or in the next.

Belief in a power greater than yourself: This is the acceptance of a spiritual power with greater strength, wisdom, and knowledge than you; one with a divine plan to include your experience, whatever you will encounter in life. Rather than believing that you are 100% in control of your destiny, belief in this spiritual power enables you to let go of over responsibility, guilt, and anger. This lets you accept God's will in your life and enables you to let go of your distrust and isolation from others. If God is in control of the universe, you can lighten your load and let God do some of the leading in your life. `"Let go and let God,'' can be your motto.

A healing environment: This is the creating of a trust bond with the significant others in your personal life where blaming, accusing, and acrimony do not exist. In the healing mode the participants actively use forgiveness, understanding, and healthy communication to resolve problems and issues. The participants are then willing to forget, to let go, and to release themselves of the past hurts, wounds, and pain, opening themselves to trust one another.

Reduction of a sense of competition: This reducing of competition, jealousy, and defensiveness with significant others in your life is a way to reduce the barriers between you and them. The lowering of these psychological barriers is essential to the movement toward development of mutual trust.

Self-disclosure of negative self-scripts: Your disclosing of your inability to feel good about yourself and your perceived lack of healthy self-esteem are essential in reducing miscommunication or misunderstanding between you and the significant others in your life. This self-disclosure reveals to the others your perspective on obstacles you believe you bring to relationships. This sheds the mask of self-defensiveness and allows the other to know you as you know yourself. It is easier to trust that which is real than that which is unreal or hidden.

Taking a risk to be open to others: This enables you to become a real person to others. It is an essential behavior in trust-building between two people because it is the establishing of the parameters of strengths and weaknesses on which you have to draw as the relationship develops.

Becoming vulnerable: This enables you to be hurt by others who know your weaknesses and strengths. This is an essential step in trust-building between people. It lays the cards on the table in a gamble that in such total self-revelation the others will accept you for who you really are rather than for who they want you to be. In order to get to full self-disclosure you must take the risk to be vulnerable to others. This is an important building block in trust development.

Letting go of fear: Fear restricts your actions with others. Letting go frees you of behavioral constraints that can immobilize your emotional development. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of caring, fear of success, fear of being hurt, fear of the unknown, and fear of intimacy are blocks to the development of trust relationships and can impede relationship growth if not given appropriate attention and remedial action.

Self-acceptance: Accepting who you are and what your potential is an important step in letting down your guard enough to develop a trusting relationship with others. If you are so insecure in your identity that you are unable to accept yourself first, how can you achieve the self-revelation necessary to develop trust? Self-acceptance through an active program of self-affirmation and self-love is a key to the development of trust.

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