Saturday, October 15, 2005

hmmm......

hey~ u noe wat...lately i've been feeling really unsecure...i'm doubting my self...i'm doubting every action that i take...or plan to take...its weird...its disturbing! i feel so weird...the ppl around me...are acting really weird....sumtimes...it feels like...my presence on earth is being ignored! i feel like...sumtimes...even the ppl closest to my heart...the ppl whom i really care for...are all goin against me...its like as though...i am making huge mistakes in life....mistakes that i shouldnt make...at this stage of life....sumtimes...i feel so alone...wished i could spill everything out...but...sadly i cant...that is just me...wow...its seems like i'm depressed...yea...i guess thats the word! i am going thru depression! haih...sumtimes...it feels like giving up....but...i cant! i am still in the race...the race of life! the only choice i have...is...to complete the race...i cant give up...i cannot turn back either! u realise sumthin...when were happy...and enjoying our life...we forget all our worries...all the sadness in our heart...all the depession we went thru...but when we get depressed....all the past comes back to us...we tend to remember every inch of it...every memory...every sad thing...that has happened to us...and it all attacks us at once...causing severe pain...wow! it hurts man...*ouch* haih...i know this wont last long...i'll get over it.....but...it seems like...i cannot handle it...if only crying could help~well...i know...the only thing that i can do now...is try to think positive abt everything! i just gotta take this as one obstacle...an obstacle that i have to go thru...in order 2 be a stronger person!hmmm...i can do it!i can overcome this thing...that i'm goin thru!actually.... i really hope so..........

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