Tuesday, April 26, 2005

wow....its been a while~~~

hi...i'm back again...after a long time...hmm...well my life...nuthin new lar...its just the same old me....still waiting for something new to happen.....cant wait for it to happen.....hmm....about my education....well...i have appealed for my JPA scholarship....but i think got no hope lar....i dont care abt it d lar....i just gotta move on!!!! so...most prob...i will b goin 2 sunway college in july to do my a-levels...then continue biotech in monash.....if its tyoo tight for me to handle...i will jus have to apply for a study loan.....which at this point i dun mind doing!!! hmm....well...in my life....nuthin much happened....jus dat...nowadays i am kinda bz...workin 4 my dad...i type letters and all....dun really mind doin dat....at least i wont die of boredom!!! lolzzz....well...i guess dats it 4 now....lolzzz...my life is so damn boring!!! will write more...if...and oni if sumthin happens...i mean sumthin new...lolzz....c ya!!!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

i feel broken...broken into pieces....

broken...that explains wat i;m feeling right now.....i dont noe wat i did wrong....i worked for it...yet they think i still dont deserve it...deserve this thing dat i had so much hope on.....i worked hard....and tried my very best,,,why cant they understand this!!!i am broken....today i checked...the net...abt my JPA scholarship...and guess wat...i didnt make it!!! i am a fool!!! i thinks my results isnt enough!!! i feel so useless!!! this is only the interview part...and guess wat...i didnt even qualify till dat stage!!! i thought my results....could bring me sum luck...but i guess luck never always falls on ur side!!! it hurts me inside!!! i didnt get my matriks...and now JPA TOO!!! haih....i feel like cryin!!! cryin all the pain in my heart out!!! cheh....i didnt noe it is so hard for the government to give me this!!! damn...i feel so useless....thank GOD....although i was sad...and almost lost hope....i still had the guts...and will to hang on!!! man....sumtimes i wonder...why everything is so unfair in this country!!! i have no idea...is it coz of my skin colour...dat i didnt get this scholarship??? or is it coz i am stupid??? or is it coz i am not good enough for this country??? haih!!! i guess this things happen....nuthin is fair in life!!!haih....luckily...i have got supportive parents by my side....they r actually willing to appeal....honestly....i have lost hope....i am not gonna wait for the government!!! man...i care a damn abt this government!!! i have decided....i am goin to continue studyin...i'll apply for a loan....i'll try my very best to do well....and i will try 2 prove 2 the government...that i am good enough!!! good enough for everythin!!! who am i kidding....i bet they dun care....haih....well...all i noe...is i jus gotta do well...make my parents happy!!! and be successful!!! dats all i want!!! i noe i can...but seriously...i feel like cryin now...cryin all the pain...OUT!!!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

~~tuesday~~12th april 2005~~

hmm...another boring day!!! hahahhahahhaha....i am so waiting for something nice to happen...but sadly nothing so far!!! lolzzz...sounds so desperate!!! hahahahhahahaha....well...lately...nothing nice happened...same old me...with same old stories...lolzzz...well not really lar...hmm....oh yah...i wasnt chosen for matriculation....hmm....well...i dont mind really....its just that.,..my options now....just reduced from 3 to 2....so now...its either...JPA or A-Levels at Sunway College!!! hmm....well...i hope i get my JPA...keeping my fingers crossed!!! anyway...enough about education....back to me...hmm....lately...have been missing school a lot!!! miss having fun with friends...miss the school teachers.....miss everything....well...tamil new year coming up....on thursday...then on friday...its the malayalees new year!!! hahahhahahha...i celebrate both...coz my dad is a tami; and my mum is a malayalee....lolzzz...love being mix!! coz i get to eat two different types of food!!! lolzzz...well...that is it 4 now...c ya soon!!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

hmmm.....

hey...i'm back....back with the same old me!!! hehehhehehe....it's true!!! anyway...i went for a career fair on Sunday...just for the fun of it...with my dad...i was just lookin around...it was pretty boring....i thought i will go home with an empty hand...but suddenly i saw Sunway College booth...and guess wat they were actually trying to promote their A-Levels course.....finally, i saw somethin dat had a connection with me...lolzzz....so...we stopped there...we asked a few things about the course...and guess what...they are actually offering scholarships...and they are willing to give me RM5000.....dat was like the highest amount...so far....taylors...said they can only give me RM2000....help....they also can only give me dat amount....hmm....sedaya college....RM2500...for the same course...which is A-Levels....and finally i found a college dat actually appreciates my results!!! lolzzz...i make it sound so great...well....actually i am very happy...i don't have to make my dad suffer much....i mean...i am from a moderate family...so....it's not easy....well...i guess...if i dont get my JPA scholarship....i will straight start my A-Levels in July....haih...i guess...there will about 2 months plus....haih!!! dat a lot of time!!! i am going to enjoy to the max because i know that once i start college....there will be no time for me to enjoy :P hehhehehhehehe...well.....i went to my aunts place on sunday too....basically dats all dat happened on sunday!!! on monday, hmmm....i was at my aunts place....playing around wif my cousinz....hahahhahahaha...and guess what...they are all like about ages 5-12 ....we played hide and seek, catching, spin the bottle, hmm....we did some cooking....well...it was fun....i noe dat i am 18...but i guess there is still a kid in all of us....i have to tell that i never actually felt bored at their place...hahahhahahha...because we just had lots of kiddy stuff to do!! lolzz.... i love kids!!! hahahhahahahha...coz i'm a kid too :P hmm....tuesday...was oklar....was at my cousins place till 5....came back....had to repair my printer...coz my dear brother did something to it....u noe me...i am always to the rescue...lolzzz....i repaired it!!! lolzzz...make me sound so great!!! lolzzz...anyway...today...hmm...back tomy normal routine...no more catching , hide and seek...lolzzz...back to serious work...hahahhaha...which is chatting, checking my friendster...and blogging...hahhahahhaha...well...dats all for today!!! actually for now....i might add on later!!! bye!!!

***trying my best to stop the chatting language...lolzzz....mum scolded me the other day....because i kept writing everything using the chatting language...lolzzz...must change!!! but it is hard!!! trust me...hahahhahaha...well...see ya!!

Friday, April 01, 2005

B-O-R-I-N-G

BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG........................................................................life is jus so boring!!! haih...i so miss school lar...i mean...there was nuthin as fun as goin 2 skool...skool rox!!! haih...i miss skool...i miss the teachers...and i miss my frens...LOADS!!! imagine a life without frens!!! life is only fun with frens around!!!! hmm...well...back to today...it's a boring day!!! damn i am so bored!!! never had anythin nice 2 do...haih...all i did was type sum stories 4 my aunty coz she is gonna send it to b published...dats it...nuthin more!!! damn!!! i hate this life...hmm...i called help uni today...and they said stuff like...although i have 8 a1s i must choose either to include english or est...wat is this man...according to her my actually results is 7A1S....dats crap...then y make me sit 4 it??? damn!!! all the malaysian governments fault!!!y should i sit 4 a paper that is not recognized in this stupid HELP UNI...man...i hate this...haih...but i gotta say...ucsi(sedaya college) was better...i mean...they are actually willing to give me sum scholarship...i hope i get to go to this college...it's cheaper...and seems kinda good!!! haih...honestly i am tellin u...afta spm ...ppl think life is easy...trust me...it's not even close to easy!!! IT'S HARD!!! TRYIN TO FIND A SUITABLE COLLEGE 4 UR GRADES ISNT AN EASY TASK AT ALL!!!trust me!!! haih...i always thought...afta spm results...hooray!!! happy times always....but guess wat...it's the total opposite...ppl will congratulate u...and at the same time...PUT TONNES OF PRESSURE ON U!!!MAN!!! hate this...but i guess i am not the only one goin thru this!!! lolzzz!! i make it sound so bad...BUT IT IS!! HAIH...NVM...THIS IS LIFE!!!lolzzz well..catch ya laterzzz...nit3zzz