Monday, February 28, 2005

today in history!!! LOLZ!!!

hi!!!! wow...we meet again!!!! today was a good day....i drove 4 da first time!!! great ha? it was so cool!!! i thought it was hard....but it wasnt dat bad...it was really fun!!!! i mean...i never knew i would get behind wheels dat fast!!! hahahahahha....i did make a few mistakes...till my teacher actually laughed at me...he asked me adjust the seat....i ended up openin the bonnet!!!! hahahahahahha dat was so funny!!!! i think my teacher was really patient wif me!!! thanks mr.andy!!!! well...i hope i do master driving fast....then i'll just b a call away....need a lift? and i'll b there....in front of ur doorstep....hahahhaha...sharu da driver!!! hahahahahha!!! seems so nice 2 drive!!! i so cant wait!!!! imagine life...when u can drive....!!!! wow!!! i could like go lepakin all da time...wow!!!! but sadly, i still gotta use my dads car!!! haih...nvm!!!! soon...i'll get my own car!!!! hmm....today was just a normal day...went to one utama again...haih...dat place is gettin boring day by day!!! haih....hmm...i dunno y but recently i have been having this feeling....u noe...da feeling of losing a friend.....haih....dunnolar....it seems like dat person...is goin further from me...day by day!!! well...i guess it's normal lar...sumtimes...they cant b permanent frens....rite? haih....however...i think the friendship i had was nice,....and fun....and i did enjoy it....and i hope dat person did 2!!!!! haih...talkin abt frens....hmm...i miss u guys!!!! hope 2 c ya soon!!!!!!!! i guess dats it 4 today....catch ya sum otha time!!!

Saturday, February 26, 2005

hmm...was damn bored!!!!!!

hi again!!! wow...another blog...3 blogs...in one day...dats really too many 4 a day...but who cares...i am so loving this....i have to thank my pet sis lar...she is da one...who made me interested in this...thanks sis!!! :) well...today was a normal day....had many things 2 think abt today...such as my spm results...which will b out really...REALLY soon!!! haih...damn scary!!!haih...i just hope...if i get bad results...i won't...i mean...I WONT commit suicide!!! hahahahha...i have always thought dat it was a stupid thing 2 do....but it happens...i guess....it's coz of ur state of mind...!!! haih...well...i also thought abt my frens 2day....missed them so much lar!!! i mean...we rarely meet these days....everyone is just so bz wif their own lives...wow!!! i guess...this happens...!!! no matter how far they r 4m me...they will always b in my heart!!! luv u guys so much!!! i also thought abt my granny's sis(mersing mutiamma)....mutiamma means granny in malayalam...wow...we miss her so much...i guess...there is never a permanent resident on earth....we will all have to leave sooner or later!!! haih...my granny is still so sad!!! she thinks abt her sis everyday...during every meal...and even when she watches tv...she called and talked 2 her brother- in-law 2day...and i guess dat made her feel much better!!! well...mersing mutiamma....i dunno where u r at this moment...but...all i noe is dat...we are all missing u...and we love u so much!!! hmm....well...i guess dat was all i thought abt today...haih...life seems so boring lar...i jus can't wait till college life starts...or mayb skool life...haih...it all depends on my results....either...form6, college, or uni( a slight chance oni....dat is if i get my matriculation)...haih!!!! if oni i could stop studyin!!!!!but....a part of me still wants to learn more....haih!!! my life is just so messy!!!! u noe wat...today i suddenly felt...like i have the best ppl around me...my parents...my bro...granny....my frens...my pet siblings...wow!!! hmm...have u ever had a broken friendship b4??? i think i'm goin thru dat....haih...friendship....sumthin dat i once thought shouldn't at all b broken....but i guess....sum ppl just hate keeping friends 4 a long duration of time!!! well it's ok....no matter how urt my heart is...i still gotta go on wif life....hmm...i guess....thats it 4 now...might come back really soon!!!! hehehehhe ;)

Friday, February 25, 2005

my boo...

hahahha...i kinda love this thing....well...listenin 2 the song..my boo-by usher and a.keys...luv da lyrics...and it's true....i love the first few lines of the song....it could apply 2 anyone...not only ur lover....but also ur frens....or even ur family......:)

the first few lines: there's always that one person,
that will always have ur heart,
u'll never c it comin...
coz u're blinded 4m da start....

is it true??? who could possibly have my heart :P hahahha....well...i guess there are sum ppl out there who would spend sum time thinkin abt us(each and everyone of us)....as we are all special ppl....we are all special in our own way...:) but why is it dat we can never find out....who dat person is....da person who spends every second of his/her life...thinkin abt us....it's hard....really hard 4 us to find out....i guess dats y they always say...always learn sumthin...from every new person u meet in life ...and cherish every moment that u have spent wif dat particular person....i guess that is da only way we have...towards finding that special sumone.. ;)

first time!!!

hey!! wow...never knew i would finally blog...hehehheh...my pet sis did it...i had so many things in my mind...so i thought this is da only way 4 me to express it all out...haih...my life seems so screwed up...i dunno wat is happenin...everythin seems so different nowadays...nuthin seems the same...i guess dats life...it can never stay the same...it changes with time...but why...why is it...dat i'm only startin to realise it now...hmm...well i guess i never really sat down and thought abt my life...haih...i always thought my life was very close to perfect....i mean...i had everythin...lovin and supportive parents....an annoyin bro...who is kinda cute at times...hehehhe...pet bro's and sis...cool and really caring frens....cuzins who really cared a lot 4 me...granny...who is always there....to give me comfort when i was in great need....wow!!! dat was perfect 4 me...!!! but now....although i still have my family, cuzins, frens...my heart asks 4 more....but i just don't noe...wat it is....! it's hard!!! really hard!!! haih...mayb it's just tension....coz spm results is comin out soon...haih...i dun get it...no matter how well u do 4 upsr or pmr...or even in skool....it's useless...coz it all comes back to SPM!!!...and next will b college life....i am so not ready 4 dat...hmm...but i just gotta face it...haih....i have no idea...wat to do...i have cried enough....too much tear drops....haih...sumtimes....behind every smile...there is tonnes of sadness...just waitin to crush us....crush us into small pieces...wow!!! i can't imagine...how much damage it could cause...but...i have yet to find...the real cause...behind every sadness....dat i carry in me....well...thereis nuthin a gurl could do....we only can cry....that is our only weapon....only weapon...for us to shed all our sadness away....and make us stronger...hmm...i guess this is life....a messy life!!!!